Bah I get annoyed telling myself I must write on here… I
just feel like I have nothing interesting to say anymore. I am so pissed bc I
can’t download anything! I have watched all my TV shows, so I am effing bored right
now. I don’t know what is wrong like if the dad made it to where I can’t
download. He is a computer whiz, so he would know how to do it. I am just so
confused. I should be working on grad school applications, but I haven’t started,
and I don’t feel like it. What graduating does to you…
Yesterday was cool because I got the whole afternoon off.
The fam left at 1pm for the circus, and I took the 1:30 train to Paris and met
up with the new Nico. The weather was pretty cold and rainy, but we went to the
Champs for the Christmas markets. We drank vin chaud, and went to the Disney
store, and later on took shelter at a brasserie for some really good hot
chocolate, and then headed home for a bit before I went to take my train. It
was fun! And a good way to get to know each other, some one on one time.
Today, I met up with Clare and Kendall and we went to the
other campus of our language school to inquire about classes there. I really
wanted to go there bc it is a lot closer to my train station, but the openings
for the classes I need just don’t fit with my schedule. Very unfortunate. I
think Clare and Kendall are gonna go there next sem, which makes me sad, but I
will make new friends I know, and still be able to seem them.
Clare and I had a sushi lunch date nearby too, so yummy! I
love sushi. It is different here though. They don’t really have special rolls,
no buy on get one either. They have meat on a stick here too, like mini-kabobs,
so weird. I want Sushi Nine!! Ahh omg a delicious sushi place 5 mins from my
house in Raleigh.
My mom’s care package arrived today. Full of kettle corn,
normal popcorn, mascara, floss, Bert’s Bees, peanut butter, and Velveeta. Good
stuff!! Thank you, Mom!! The popcorn here just sucks, so this American stuff is
much needed. No flavor here at all bleh!
Today was a good au pair day too. I did a real full-out
English lesson, I have been slacking lately, and just played an English game
with the kids, but it really is fun. And the boy actually talks to me when we
play games, which is nice. Then the kids and I watched funny animal youtube
videos for a bit, so I am satisfied with me being an au pair right now, but in
all honesty, I am burned out.
I can’t imagine another 7 months of this. Maybe I just need
that Xmas break, but I feel like I need more. I am just always having to think
about my trains, getting there on time, tip-toing around the family to be a good
au pair, and it is a little exhausting. I can’t be me per say…just a weird,
wound up version of me. I am just glad I can vent to my au pair friends all
about this because they actually understand. No one reading this does really
because you can’t until you’re in my shoes, just like with everyone else. But I
know people out there have a false perception of this au pair business because
I had it too. Anyways, I don’t know. I just have to deal with a lot, just like
everyone else, I am not crying for attention and oh boo-hoo to me, it is just a
lot of different things to worry about than I have ever had to previously, and
all I have to compare it to is what I had before. I am rambling… and I say I
have nothing to write about. This blog is really therapy, for my sake, and y’all
get to sift through it… my apologies. I am talking as if a lot of people read
this too haha.
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