PINK EYE

Sick AGAIN. I developed pink eye today wtf. Body give me a damn break. And plus I had a sore throat this morning, and it came back tonight. I am stressed about going to the doctor because I know I need to go to get medicated drops to fix this. Uhg I hope I can go tomorrow; I have free time during the morning, so that would be perfect, but I need to actually call and make the apt. I am nervous because last time I tried for my throat, the lady just hung up on me. I just don’t want to deal with this shit now. I hate being sick and not in my country. Life is complicated. I don’t even have my French social security opened yet bc of my birth certificates, so I have to pay this out of pocket too. Bleh.

I went to the pharmacy and got eye drops, but I know it is mild stuff and probably won’t help. I am nervous about calling for an appointment. The dad said he would be gone all day too, and usually he is here, so I could have used his help if I needed.

I talked to the mom about making an appointment and what time I should. I think tomorrow morning while Elliot is at school is the best because it gives me a range of hours, as opposed to waiting from 6-7pm while the kids are in music because I feel like my appointment would last over an hour, and the kids would be stranded. But the parents were like but the girl will sleep in during the morning. Well who the eff cares; I can wake her up and take her with me for Pete’s sake. Like is that really an issue? My eyes are all puffy, red, and have ooze coming out of them. I need medical help, and they are concerned with their daughter sleeping in. Bull shit. When (if) I make this appointment (bc I am nervous about French on the phone), I am waking her up because I am gonna choose a morning appointment.

I am frustrated and nervous about tomorrow. Uhg I hate feeling this way. I really want to skype my mom, but she won’t answer, so I have no one to talk to about this, which makes it worse because I am sick and feel all alone. Mehh

On a happy note, I was invited to Thanksgiving dinner by the American mom! I am so excited. I better not have pink eye or at least medication for it to prevent me from going,  that would be so sad. But I was so so about Thanksgiving because I knew I wasn’t gonna celebrate, but now I am happy because I am actually gonna do something. The mom is gonna invite her American friends, so it will be a little get together. She said it would be a bunch of 30 year olds, but I don’t care. I am excited about American company on Thanksgiving! Plus the two daughters are really sweet and cool. One is like in middle school, so she is super easy to talk to. And the mom said there’d be pies. I must go. I hope pink eye does not prevent this.

On Sunday, I didn’t do a whole lot, but a few weeks ago I bought Jerome some fois gras with a chocolate spread (from the Chocolate Festival), and he was looking forward to eating it, but wanted to do it right by cooking a good meal with duck in it. So we did it for lunch on Sunday. I had the easy job of instant mash potatoes, but he made really good food! First he friend some green beans until they were basically burnt with salt and pepper, which was delish. Then two types of duck meat. One was a slender piece that was kinda crispy and then the other was like a filet. I am not good at describing food btw. All of this was really good, but the first course was the fois gras. Usually I compare this stuff to wet cat food, but I actually enjoyed/liked it this time. The chocolate stuff was kinda weird, but I really did like the fois gras.

Later on, we saw Twilight with Vincent. The movie was pretty decent! I was looking forward to it and was glad I had someone to go with because last year I went to the midnight premiere with some girls, so I was missing being able to do that. The boys liked it pretty good; not amazing, but not terrible to them.

On Monday, I saw Clare and Kendall for a bit. We went to the Christmas markets and rode the Ferris wheel they put up. It was 10 euros, but worth it to us. So glad I did that. Love seeing a view of the city. I saw another view of the city today because I went up the Arc de Triomphe today after class with Paige. I only had like 10 mins up there, but it was free with our visas, so I guess it doesn’t matter. It was a great view too! I just love views of the city so much. I have no idea why.

Also today, I was literally on E with my car driving home. I told the dad to put gas in my car over the weekend (well asked), but he said we wouldn’t use my car… so there that was his explanation. Therefore I have been slowly getting on empty till today when I really thought I would just run out of gas. I hate how he put me in that situation. I was a nervous wreck all the way home, and I was driving on a hwy too. Then he wasn’t even home when I got home, so I called and left a message because he didn’t answer. Then he texted saying to still pick up Zoé and he would be home in an hour. Yea thanks for your help. When I got to the school, he texted saying he was there? Wtf, and then I found the girl and dad. His phone was dying that was why he texted me, but still weird. Then he had bought some gas in a can and put gas in my car, but it was still at the same level (below E) when I got in the car. Ah whatever, I asked him to put gas in tonight, so problem solved.

I am just frustrated right now. A lot of stuff at once I guess. I just need someone to talk to,  that is why I am ranting on this. I feel alone. I know I sound depressed. I am having a moment.

My train to school was also messed up today. The fast train didn’t show up, so I had to take an RER, which lengthens the time by a lot, and then we sat in the middle of nowhere for like 20 minutes, so I was like an hour late to school today.

Today is not my day. And then tomorrow is the dreaded Wednesday, which will be worse since the dad won’t be here. I will have to do everything by myself. Ah whatever. Good night.